A Difference a Year Makes

One year ago today I was a day over my due date and in a foul mood. All the anticipation, anxiety, and impatience at Baby M's arrival had left me in an emotional funk. Everyone kept asking me when this baby was going to come, and having not had a single contraction or other indicator, I was getting disappointed. I mean, my doc had said I was likely going to go early. Hellloooooooo. So I was a mushy, sad girl. That night when I crawled in bed to watch #1 Kentucky take on South Carolina, I knew we were going to lose. It was just one of those days. And all I kept thinking was, I stayed up late to watch this? But an hour and a half later, at 1:30 am on the 27th, my water broke and a whole new adventure began. Baby M was on the way!!!!!


Contrast that morning with today. Upon waking I peeked in on Adam and found him standing in his crib. He was quietly playing with his lights-and-sound machine,  having already tossed his toys and blanket overboard, and wore a huge grin that said, "Good Morning, Mommy!" {sigh} Now that's the perfect way to wake up!

I have often said that I wish all the development that takes place in the first year could stretch out to two. In 12 short months so much happens -- from being a tiny, helpless bundle to being a walking, babbling toddler, I have blinked and he's on to the next stage. I am sad to look back and realize that I am already forgetting what he was like at 8 weeks old. But I can also say that I can't remember life without him; he has simply always been a part of us.

So instead of packing a hospital bag today, I am planning a birthday party. I am trying to keep things in perpective -- it's his First birthday, yes, and he won't remember this, true, and we should just keep this small and simple, uh-huh.... I keep telling myself and Michael that it will basically be a small playdate with cake. And handmade favors. And custom decorations. And a fabulous cake that Gramma and I will create (after making a fully decorated cake last weekend just to practice!). So come on by Gramma's house on Saturday and share a slice with us! Or Skype in. We'd love to "see" you!

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And a very special Happy Birthday to my beautiful Nana! We love you!!!